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lon355ome @ 2002-07-28T05:24:00

2002-07-27T21:18:51Z

The dead walked through town again last night.

A glazed-eyed child trailed a toy and windless kite.

It stumbled, fell and crawled on twisted puppet legs

The soulless little one with its marching company of human dregs.

T'was surprising how well it carried
Despite that it once was buried.

The dead walked on in endless parade

Long lines of corpses spawned fresh by the nuclear spade.

The trail of Mother Nature's forgotten--
Beings reeking, beings rotten.

We traced their rebirth to some unholy crater, and from there down our mid-Nevada desert trudging,

A hellish, improvident accident of nature, warped, hungry, dead, but somehow free of God's judging.

Lurching and lunging, taking startled and helpless victims. Hour by hour,
Falling and stumbling, advancing town by town, propelled by no earthly power.

Filling, then feeding from great and bloody writhing sacks, slung on backs unbent

The sated dead ever walked, passing us by; the still hungry, ranging for our scent.

Their hundred hungers haunt us still.
We've heard every open basement and attic creak with sounds that killed.

Desperate, ignorant us, trailed by unholy sounds of shuffling feet--

From all sides they came at us, suited and shrouded armies, marching to an insistent beat.

Left to fend for ourselves by ignorance and disbelief from our capitol dome
We pulled back our tired and wounded guard, home by home.

Our hideous life here called for new rules for a survival game.

Rules that changed to stall our final surrender--like diverting them to our lame.

We ignored the screams
And stifled our dreams

Until awakened by the dread

Of being eaten, alive and abed,

Came closer and closer, day after day,

To make ourselves resemble our foes in every way.

Our hospital halls deserted, emptied, long abandoned by staff,
I could now easily dread my own, possessed, evil laugh.

But we surviving decided to fight on, in this tug 'o war little Jerusalem

Handily exhausting every sane way to wall, delay, or divert them.

Only to see the next wave of onslaught, protecting, then losing our own children here--
Their eyes stolen and hearts hammering with wonder and fear.

There was an unstoppable magnetism that drew the little ones to the killing ground.

In numbers too big to save them all, our heads bowed, watching them go down.

With eyes like ruby lasers full on, the dead came after them, out of that crater dark.
They ripped their victims flesh, tearing out the young lives' spark.

Inexorably drawn to our town borders,

Heeding some laughing devil's abominable orders.

We're gathering for our last stand
While our "negotiators" lie bone-dried in the sand.

By now we think the devil is bored, just toying with us in our rubble

Undoubtedly expecting us to succumb after days of struggle.

But now we're down to a hardy few,
And the muscular swing of the machete is hardly new.

The town streets weeded over and went to dust.

And the wretched dead stole the salvation hope of any resident God we trust.

The desolate remainder of our time and life here
Is to fight the devil until we fall far and near

Under numbers and momentum we now know we cannot stall.

There's nothing that remains at all

Of your sanity at first glimpse of your loved one's still bright red blood,

Skull cracked open--leaking fat and spongy tissue mud.

Our final strategy is simple yet staunch:

We human dregs have an insane defensive-offense to launch

We were committed to scorch the very ground, and black the sky above.

In my house I walk from room to room, wondering about life, if this's what's left of all I love,

Then what's the sum required to make it worthwhile to survive,

When all are dead, and all is lost, yet I remain alive--

But it's revenge, not life, that torches the most passionate fire and flame,
And the last posse ride would never leave any of us the same

We now look them in the eye, ugly to the point of physical pain

We chop and cut with nothing to lose and the devil's side nothing to gain.

Though unbeaten as yet, we believe in our hearts that devil'd say
Somewhere, there must be easier prey.

After all, only the hardest won faiths attract

An ever-advancing evil, ever-seeking to distract

From the simple truth that our choices are to hold to a path already beaten,

Whether true or false, or literally, succumb as faithless and be eaten.

It's a fevered act of bloody red revenge to rend the shapes
That climb to meet us in our daylight nightmares on the breaks.

Driven by the need to eat our wet electric life and move

It's the devil's puppetry turned down a blood lust groove.

And like answering some fiendish logic test,
We affirmed again to sacrifice the last of all we loved best.

We few summoned our own devils, and schemed our intruders' demise--

Pulling from a bottomless well of revenge, an insane hate that can no longer surprise.

We hung them on crosses and laced them into barbed wire fences,
But on they came, ignoring the pain of their own baying, screeching senses.

While their advance and destroy orders rang from the unholiest of thrones

Until silenced by our earth-moving, killdozing charge that jellied their bones.

Those dead that once came at us sucking teeth and gore-drooling
Now litter a dead-town spent worthless by a desperate pact and ruling.

The world watched and reported our "delusional" fight against death in reverse

Leaving us to fend for fleeting victory at the highest cost and a death even worse.

Into the desert we few dozen took our plan, with full intent
To fend off hell with foe-matching insanity, our minds wrecked and bent.

The roar of the straining engines and screech of the jammers' clutches.

The black, sweet-acrid diesel smoke of the tractors showed such as

A never before heard hell-bent, echo-rolling, ground-gear thunder as roared from those steeds.

With turbo squalling Cats and eighteen-wheeler cabs red-lined for one time only speeds,

We churned our stumbling foes under the wheels and grader-blades of certain final death

Until no trace remained of that spewing crater's foul inhuman breath.

If given a choice, friend dear,
Always opt for self-inflicted fear.

For when the real fright comes across your land,

And keeping life and limb are outcomes doubtful and grand,

Don't say you weren't given warning, or be laughing fools,

There are things, out there, that can mock your hardest rules.

Take it from me, the worst of all,

Is fighting back, when your own dead come back to call.

enjoy ure dae pple...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-26T01:39:00

2002-07-25T17:32:38Z

I draw my sword and stand my ground.
My undeads risen, called and bound.
"Death to the Unfaithful!" is the cry
They engage us in battle, to kill us or die

Steel hits steel, sparks fly free
Blood flows quickly. A thick crimson sea.
"Death to the Heathen!". My blade strikes out.
The enemy breaks. Their retreat becomes rout.

My undeads charge forth. Bringing death to my Foe.
Clawing and slashing and laying them low.
"Death to the Heretics!". Another fool dies.
I'm paying no heed to their begs for their lives.

They seek to destroy me, and recapture their souls.
But my undeads are ready, their eyes burn like coals.
"Death to the Unclean!". They want back their light.
But I command darkness. The unending night.

Grinning and growling, my undead returned.
The city is cleansed. The churches are burned.
We bought Death to the townsfolk. Their heroes lie broken.
The warm-hearted will perish. The Dark One has spoken.

lon355ome @ 2002-07-22T02:36:00

2002-07-21T18:42:05Z

There lays one path I took after rain
Perhaps you may
Encounter the leaf
Brown his name,gray cement his bed
Admist wet grasses
Secrets
Of a mysterios region

MY MEMORY IS PRINTED BROWN...

A boy came by
After a rain
And flattened
The already flat
When I recovered
From this aftermath
Of a rain
I swear

This is one path I will never take

ALL I WISH IS A LITTLE UNDERSTANDING
from people and faces around me
All I hope for is a wishing star
to hear my heartfelt longings
to make them understand,
and comprehend the pain I'm going though
The hurt which wrenched my heart
and deeply torn me apart..

Life's circumstances may bring consequences which is beyond my control
Much as I wish that I'll pull through
the truth behold is beyond of which I could not ignore.

All I wish is a little understanding
Some kind words and a little comforting
All I want is a space to call my own
a chance to lead a life
My life, and to build myself a home.

Love Lost, All But Nothing Is Found
Pain Dwells Amoung The Confusion And Hurt
Anger Grows Unchecked
Barbaric Actions Uncovered
Feeling Of Joy Disappears
What Is One Suppose To Do?
I Stumble Foward Unsure
BLinded With The Present
The Past Like A Dagger In My Heart
Future Seems So Bleak And Barren...

Effort Have been shown ....
Thy Shall not carry on ...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-22T02:01:00

2002-07-21T18:05:32Z

Purple Tears Fall From Thy Black Eyes.
While My Hands Drip Of Blood,
I Look Into The Mirror To See The Face
I Feared For So Long.

Death has returned to me...

Why Does All Life Fade She Asked,
Just As Everything Does.
These Know They Will Die Yet Stay Happy,
Is It To Keep Them Sayne?
Why Isn't There A Cure For Death,
How Can We Stop It.
Or Do We Just Welcome It,
What Will Happen Where Will We Go,
Who Knows,
Who Can I Ask,
What Will Happen To Me.
And The Strange Being Underneath His Worn Black Cloak,
He Did Not Move,
He Did Not Say A Word,
He Just Held His Sythe A Slight Grin Under His blood

Thy Have No Intension Of Death
But Thy Old Friends Shall They Have...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-15T04:04:00

2002-07-14T20:00:08Z

Our Father who was in heaven, Reversed spaketh thy name
Thy fiery furnace, Thy will thy will be done
On earth as it is in hell!
Give us this day our bloodied bread
And reward us for our trespasses
As we delete those, who trespass against us
And lead us quick into temptation
But deliver us from good, For thyne is the furnace
The diabolical power, NEMA!

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure that they want to hear them.

3. When in another's lair, show him respect or else do not go there.

4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.

5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the maiting signal.

6. Do not take that which does not belong to your unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.

7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of ....magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.

8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.

9. Do not harm little children.

10. Do not kill non-human animals unless attacked or for your food.

11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy .......him.

Hail satan , fuck the jews , kill god

2002-07-14T19:49:28Z

1. What is Satanism?
At first glance this may look like a simple question to answer: "Go look it up in the dictionary." would seem to be straightforward enough. In fact, I'll do it for you:

Satanism : 1. the worship of Satan or the powers of evil.
2. a travesty of Christian rites in which Satan is worshipped.
3. diabolical or satanic disposition, behavior, or action.
[ from Webster's Encyclopedic Unabridged Dictionary of the English Language ]

Unfortunately it's not that easy. There is no one set of beliefs that comprise Satanism. Because there is no set of doctrines or scriptures agreed upon by a majority of Satanists, would-be practitioners must define their beliefs for themselves, based upon a minimum of shared information. The issue is further confused by the fact that, historically, most records of real or imagined Satanism have been made by Satanists' traditional enemies, Christians. However a few generalizations can be made: the average Satanist disagrees with much of Christianity, believes in no absolute moral code, and places emphasis on the individual and personal rights. If you think this sounds like Libertarianism, you're right; many Satanists consider themselves Libertarians or feel close to the party on social issues.
The one unifying theme among the Satanisms is the last of the three definitions; one can say with some certainty that all Satanisms and Satanists have diabolical or satanic dispositions in that they are "like Satan." They possess the virtues of antinomianism, self-reliance, rebellion and adversarialism.

There are several divisions one could make as to the belief systems of various "Satanic" groups. This [ arbitrary ] division was included to point out various currents or influences in modern day satanism rather than an attempt at categorization.

1. The Dabblers: adopt Satanic trappings for a brief
period of time, usually for entertainment rather than
serious purposes. Many modern youths fall into this category.

2. Churches of Satan: are patterned after the teachings of
Anton LaVey. These groups believe in individualism, gratification
of the ego, self-reliance and the ideal of the Nietzchean Superman.
These groups use Magick as a tool for earthly power. They see
Satan as the driving force behind achievment in mankind.

3. Gnostics: can be divided into two major categories
3a. Promethian Gnostics: Believe in a literal "Satan", but believe
that the creator of the world (Jehovah) is the evil deity. Satan is
seen as the "bringer of light"; a beneficient god. This is an old
"heresy" seen in groups such as the Yezidis.

3b. Dark Gnostics: Worship the dark force in nature. These groups
follow the whims of a capricious god, which most westerners would
see as being "evil." There are a few historical christian heresies
which would fall into this category. Kali worshippers could also
be categorized here.

4. Secondary Satanists: follow a faith outside the Christian
mainstream. Most would not consider themselves as being "Satanic"
and strictly speaking should not be defined as satanists [ as per se
with some of the Gnostic groups ], but the ignorant often categorize
them as Satanists. Voodoun and Santiera could be grouped here, as
could medeaval witchcraft [ if it actually existed ]. Certain forms of
Tantric Buddism could also be placed in this category.

5. Hellfire Clubs: Were a phenomenon of the 18th century. The
first of these was founded by the Duke of Wharton in the early
1700's. Most infamous was sir Francis Dashwood's Medmenham club
[ Often incorrectly called the hellfire club ]. Dashwood was a
close freind of Benjamin Franklin, who may have been a member of
this group. Franklin's description of the Medmeham club's
secret chambers is one of the few we have, so his membership seems
likely. In any case, Dashwood and Franklin co-authored the "Franklin
Prayer Book" [ often called the Book of Common Prayer ] which is
commonly used in America. Another famous member of the Medmanham club
was the Earl of Sandwich, inventor of the Sandwich.
Hellfire clubs were exclusive groups dedicated to much political
intrigue, partying, and some occasional occult activities.

6. Romantic/Promethean Satanists
Literary/historical "Satanists" -William Blake, Charles Baudelaire,
Maupertin, Lautremont and Gabriele D'Annunzio.

7. Left-Hand Path Pagans
There are several European groups, most of them consisting of small
"covens" of several people, that are or could be considered
Satanists. Two of the larger of these groups are The Fraternity of
Baelder and the Order of Nine Angles (ONA). These groups allegedly
have longer traditions, and "more authentic" origins [ whatever that
might mean ]. ONA is especially fond of calling itself the
"traditional Satanists."
These groups tend to have more "extreme" views than the others
mentioned, and have little, if any authoritarian structure. Some
allege these groups do not exist, but they answer my mail.

lon355ome @ 2002-07-08T00:54:00

2002-07-07T16:48:26Z

well... later 2dae i m goin ice skating wif szeling , jillian , raynor , ian , kumar... cant wait~!!!!! hehex~! well now at least no need 2 worrie abt all the pass... now both of them ar happi and doin fine.. well i m doin fine 2 ... i lurve her~!
sorrie pple i m not 2 tell ne1... shiiiiiiiii
hehex~! well have fun pple~! take care~!!!!
lurve u pple~!
enjoy ure dae ~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-07T11:50:00

2002-07-07T03:45:19Z

welll... got nothing 2 sae... juz woke up... staring at the com n0ow... damn blur now lorz... newae... have a brand new dae 2dae~! bye~! have great fun and enjoy ure dae~!
take good care pple

lon355ome @ 2002-07-07T03:24:00

2002-07-06T19:22:03Z

Who's SCREAM Do You Posess?
Quiz by Steph or Steph
....
nothing much 2 sae.. went 2 orchard 2 meet szeling and brenda... walked walked walked... szeling damn nosiy plZ~! lolx... hmmm.. den.. around 6.20 left.. den i reached hm.. dad went down 2 buy some food back.. den ate.. damn watch tc .. watch watch watch... den recived msg 4rm szeling saying tt she is at brenda's house... den they was lyk drinkin vodak.... ermm.. den sze ling got drunk..... den had 2 tok 2 brenda tell her 2 fetch her hm... and take care of her... so yar.. now online.. no 1's online cos everybody is slping.. welll. have a nice dae 2molo~!
have fun~!
enjoy~!
smile always~!
take good care pple~!
buaix~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-06T12:44:00

2002-07-06T04:39:36Z

another boring dae... another cold and lonely dae....
dun tink i'll b goin out 2dae... dun tink any1 would wan mi 2....
so.... i'll stay at hm and rot..
have fun pple~!
enjoy ure weekends~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-06T00:46:00

2002-07-05T16:42:26Z

understanding is important 2 mi... i'll understand wad u pple have 2 sae... i'll understand wads happening.. and i'll understand how much 2 loose a fren.. so.. now all i wanna do is 2 b alone.. chosen tt cos i dun wan anything 2 happen between my 2 frenz... okie... well.. have fun pple...
enjoy ureselves~!
take good care~!
cya~!
lurve u pple as my frenz~!
buaix~!
have fun enjoy ureself while i stay here alone... as i wished 2 b.. so go ... dun worrie abt mi.. i'll b fine...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-05T21:03:00

2002-07-05T12:59:30Z

harlowz~! juz finished my dinner... damn full.. juz now went 2 orchard 2 meet keshia den lyk 4awhile onli sialx... lyk i go there 4 5mins den go hm liaox.. fun fare sialx... haix.... cheer up pple... okie.. haix.. take good care... i bought a wrist band ... okie... nothing much 2 sae liaox... haix...
take good care pple~!
mIss Ya aLL~!
bUaIx~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-05T01:29:00

2002-07-04T17:27:20Z

hArLoW pPle.. guess u pple ar slping.. well i juz got hm 4rm a movie at tm~! wHoOhoO~! i watch montrity report or something lyk tt.. the show is damn nice~! its a mus watch~! haix... well now drinking wong wong fruit milk~! the drink rox lar okie~! hehex~! well,... nothing much 2 sae liaox.... hmmm... dun 4get abt mi ok~! buy things 4 mi okie~! so sianx... no 1 online.. well take goood care~!
cya~!
mUaCKxZ~!
SmIlE alWaYs~!
lyfe is ment 2 b painfull.. but.. u juz have 2 let it pass and tink afresh...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-04T19:25:00

2002-07-04T11:20:28Z

hmmm... 2dae went 2 keshia house 2 slack.. hehex... soooo "fun" fera and keshia was doin project den i went there slack~! lolx~! den left at 5p.m... den 4got got roller blading training... rushed lyk hell sialx... reach there late sialx... den now.. back at hm.. relaxing... okie... ermmm. dats all 4 now... take good care pple~! haVe fUn~! cYa~!
bUaIXZ~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-04T00:47:00

2002-07-03T16:47:43Z

Well... juz went 2 meet my god sis... at bugis den went 2 marina square met some so called "chio buz" .... my god sis taste is soooo eeeeeeyUcK~!!!! den i said no thanx... and then had dinner there... came hm lorz... my lyfe is nothing much.... meaning less.....
well.. everybody.. take good care of ureselves~!....
buaix.....
take good care~!
haix....
nothing much 2 sae...
buaix...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-02T14:06:00

2002-07-02T06:06:10Z

4 now its over.. but we shall have no hard feelins wif each other... i tink we r betta off as frenz... i never lyk a stead which i have 2 qurrell every nite... never lyked a stead 2 ignore mi the way u did.. but 4 now ... i shall 4get abt all this... and i tink we should b frenx... its much betta... plz understand... i m not totally comparing u wif her lar okie... i m juz stating the facts... 4 i noe i didnt play wif u ... if u wanna noe .. i didnt play wif ure feelins... i was juz trying 2 state things out.. and wish things would b juz fine... but now.. its all over... okie.... now we should juz live our lyfe as happi as possible.. okie... haix... have a nice dae and take good care of ureself lar okie....

lon355ome @ 2002-07-02T12:03:00

2002-07-02T04:03:39Z

Now wad i wanna do is 2 b alone.. not even u disturb mi now okie... i m 2 confused.. 2 confused 2 sae or do anything... U PPLE JUZ LEAVE MI ALONE~! DON BOTHER MI~! MY ANGER HAS COME 2 A LIMIT~! FUCK OFF ~! DUN DISTURB MI~! Dun wanna tok abt anything dun care abt anything no more.... if this is the way u wanna treat mi ... den i cant do anything~! all i wanna sae is quick get it done~! everything wil b settleD~! okie~! now i wanna b alone~! I DUN WAN PPLE 2 CALL MI OR EVEN SMS MI~! LEAVE MI ALONE U MOTHER FUCKERS~! U did this 2 mi... thy had no choice no more..... now juz leave mi alone .... leave alone in the dark corner.... leave mi alone~!!!!!!
FUCK OFF~!!!!!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-02T00:40:00

2002-07-01T16:34:35Z

I am absolutely soulless!

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

haix... dun wanna tok abt anything.. dun have the mood.. cant see everything cleary... 2 drunk 2 c..

lon355ome @ 2002-07-01T21:11:00

2002-07-01T13:09:19Z

The Calling, "Final Answer"
Album: Camino Palmero

I want love
TO carry me through
All the moments, I'd kindly undo
Locked away
So I can feel safe

Now that I'm down on my knees, begging for change
Look down at the water
Before I jump in
To find I was sinking fast, in all that might have been

CHorus:
What I need now is an honest answer to make things better
you can see now my hands are tied and I surrender
So i'll wait here for your final answer, your final answer

Is there live without hate
Is there pleaseure without pain?
I have seen all my mistakes
I cast you out, but now I want you back
SO light me again, cause my heart is turning black

Chorus

Remember the night you wore that dress
I flowed through our lips
drink after drink and kiss after kiss
I'm sil holding on, day after day
Don't run away

I want love to carry me through
Can you tell me what I'm supposed to do

Chorus

u see tings as if i m blaming u~! but actually i m fucking blaming myself lar okie~! look i dun wanna qurrell wif u lar okie.. it hurts mi more den anything lar okie~!
now its my turn 2 have sometime alone lar okie... i juz need sometime 2 tink abt wads happening lar okie.. i m not blaming whoever u tink i m lar okie~! i m juz blaming my fucking self lar okie~! i dun wan 2 tok abt it no more~! all i noe is juz tt i lurve u deeply and truthy lar okie... if u tink i m lying 2 u ... ure tinking things wrong~!
pple.. dun disturb mi now lar okie~! i m totally not in a good mood now lar okie~!

lon355ome @ 2002-07-01T20:22:00

2002-07-01T12:24:24Z

haix... my lyfe is so cold... i walked in the rain 2 lagoon view juz now...
den walked back hm 4rm lagoon view in the rain ... haix.. i juz cant 4give myself..
i made her so upset.. haix.. i juz dunno wad 2 do.... asked omar 2 pass the letters 2 sarah and tanya... den i left ... went back hm.. juz ate my dinner... now chatting wif her , min , monica... so lyk yar... haix... now lyk ermm. askin pple 2 come 2 watch a movie wif mi either on the 3 or on the 4th of july... haix... so i can relax my mind... i m tinking 2 much... haix.. well..... i m gonna cut down on my cigarettes .. 4rm 20 sticks a dae 2 10 den 6 den 4 den 2 den quit liaox.. so lyk ermm yar... haix... i lurve u sarah~! plz... 4give mi.. 4 wad i have done....

i lurve u sarah~! ure the 1 i lurve the most among all my ex steads okie~! i will never wanna break wif u... i cant do anything if u wanna break wif mi lorz... haix...

lon355ome @ 2002-07-01T12:35:00

2002-07-01T04:33:21Z

juz woke up.... haix... neck hurts.. back hurts.... heart hurts....
now tt i knew wad i did wrong... its time 4 mi 2 change 4 her......
wad i need is juz sometime alone now... i hate my lyfe... now smokin...
no1 is online... online donald... haix... i lurve u sarah.... plz..
4give me.... i miss u lyk crazie... cant stand anymore... i juz wanna..
b wif u but... u need ure time wif ure frenz and all.... haix......
well... take care... buaix... lurve u.... miss u ........

lon355ome @ 2002-07-01T01:23:00

2002-06-30T17:21:23Z

sorrie.... i finally noe wad did i do wrong.. plz 4give mi...k
and tanya... plz cheer up.... =*(.... haix......
the world is goin upside down on mi~!
haix.. plz cheer up pplez~!.... i dun wan anything 2 happen 2 u all okie~!
i dun care abt wad happens 2 mi~! i onli care abt u all and esp sarah~!
i lurve u pple~! i lurve sarah alort~!
4give mi pple 4 wad i did... i was 2 harsh on u guys.. so sorrie... haix....
my eyes ar tired cos of all the crying last nite and 2dae afternoon...
haix...

main point~! cheer up tanya~! i lurve u sarah~! dats all i wanna sae...

lon355ome @ 2002-06-30T21:56:00

2002-06-30T13:51:43Z

haix... well juz wanna update b4 i let my bro use the com... haix.. i lurve u sarah~! .. okie......... haix... i gtg now... so lyk ermm... bye...

tc
cya
buaix
lurve u sarah~!
missing u .....
bye.....

lon355ome @ 2002-06-30T20:39:00

2002-06-30T12:37:56Z

slipknot

Running out of ways to run I can't see, I can't be Over and over and under my skin All this attention is doing me in Fuck it all! Fuck this world! Fuck everything that you stand for! Don't belong! Don't exist! Don't give a shit! Don't ever judge me! Picking through the parts exposed Taking shape, taking shag Over and over and under my skin All this momentum is doing me in You got all my love, livin' in your own hole Drippin' hole man, hard step, no fate Show you nothin', but I ain't holdin' back Every damn word I say is a sneak attack When I get my hands on you Ain't a fucking thing you can do Get this cuz you're never gonna get me I am the very disease you pretend to be I am the push that makes you move

bsb

Baby please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now, don't bother
If every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become
Oh yeah

Chorus: Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was trying to be someone
Play my part & kept ya in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness is tragical
So help me, I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now, don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Chorus

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm looking back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
Keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Chorus x 2

Show you the shape of my heart

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songs tt i m listening now... haix... i shall juz give her time on her own den....... understanding 4rm when i m angry i needed time 2 relax myself... dear... i hope u will understand.. i lurve u !!!!

lon355ome @ 2002-06-30T16:58:00

2002-06-30T08:59:57Z

haix... my lyfe sux lar okie.. dunno y is sarah doin this 2 mi.. i dun understand.. sarah plz... tell mi.. at least reply my msg plz.. i lurve u .. i never wanna break wif u lar okie.. haix... ar u serious wif mi?!? i dun understand ... plz tell mi wads happening.. i lurve u lar.. do u still love mi anot..... haix.. my life is soooo worthless wif out u lar okie... i juz lurve u alort la.. i dun wanna loose u.. i need u lar .. i lurve u lyk crazie... y ar u ignoring mi.. i dun understand.. did i not treat u well? did i do something wrong so u ar treating mi lyk this? y~! i dun understand wads happening....haix.. well i juz wrote a letter 4 u ok.. and i got a teddy bear 4 u okie.. haix... i juz hope ure not playing wif mi or wad lorz... cos i m dead serious lar okie.. haix.......

i lurve sarah~! i cant live my life wif out u... y dun u understand??